Trying to Cheat Hopelessness

Hope to me is a treasure that can unlock any difficulty. However, I must admit that I am human with my own share of questions, doubts, fears and concerns. I have only by experience, especially caused by failures and the episodes that I want to forget, realized that it is difficult to remain hopeful all the while. Yet, what fun would life be if you cannot be charged with hope?
I struggled a lot to find an answer and though I have still not found one, I have found a workaround. It is a funny way to cheat hopelessness. I have made a compromise to provide hopelessness room in my space but at a time that I wish. It was decided that whenever I work, dream or talk with other people it shall be hope that serves as my companion. Similarly, whenever I sleep or am vague and non-committal, it is hopelessness that shall play the shot.
Now, whenever I talk with other people and whatever transactions I encounter, I bask with hope. Hopelessness returns but when I don't need it. I am working hard these days to graduate into the next phase of life when I could charge hope to kill hopelessness. Till that time, it is the conscious commitment not to fret in the company of other people that charges me to enjoy life. Any other time, I let life be natural - a mix of imperfection and confusion bonded by hope and beauty!